one trapped mind.

#foreveralone.

2011-11-09T23:41:00.004+08:00

Pretending your asleep when your emotionally a wreck so the world will leave you alone.

Feist.

2011-11-05T16:19:00.003+08:00

I was misunderstood and labeled as someone who doesn't listen, it's a bummer when a friendly debate turns into getting misunderstood and labeled. And you can hear in the assumption, that they had this on their mind for awhile. Like they've been waiting for the right moment to slip it out and say it to you without feeling bad. I guess I'm an easy target like that, then of course I post about it ( like now , which I didn't update this place like forever ) feeling blue and confused and frustrated, because I know I'm not the person they're painting me out to be, and I really don't want to say something aout how it made me feel, to them; I didn't want to argue or disrespect them like they did to me, it isn't fair when that person sees your status and calls you out on and it makes a fuss, and proceeds to tell me I should'nt be posting statuses like that ( you know who you are ) Who the fuck are you to judge? that if I had a problem I should've told them to their face, well the proble is I didn't want to tell you to your face because I didn't feel like being a " know it all " and having you think I'm trying to be " always right " again I'm " not listening" . Plus I didn't feel like saying anything, which isn't a bad thing. Silent is good for avoiding problems. I just wanted to hold my tongue, because I felt it was a wise choice. I don't like arguing. It may come off sometimes like I do, I see it as a beig passionate about how I feel and believe about something. Never do I argue for the sake of arguing, that's pointless. Ultimately everything is what you make of it. You can see this a negative thing and get defensive, or take this as an opportuity to grow and learn and clear up misunderstandings. I definitley choose the latter by default. I grew up with too much people getting angry and defensive at every disagreement all the time. I choose to react to everything intellectualy and positively and with an open mind and heart. I'm not a person who likes conflict, I'm terrified by them. I'm never gonna fight with someone, when I know there are other ways to handle situations . Hopefully they don't take all too seriously. Plus man, I can post whatever the fuck I want, this is my blog, that is my twitter and my facebook. If I want to post about how something you said made me feel, I'm going to sure as hell do it. K , it's off my chest. I feel better..

THROW ICE CUBES AT ME PLEASE.

Don't you remember?

2011-08-27T21:44:00.003+08:00

I gave you the space so you could breathe.
I kept my distance so you would be free.
And hope you find the missing piece.
Which would bring you back to me.

Don't you remember,
the reason you loved me before.
Baby, please remember me once more.

Your the best I ever had.

2011-05-07T10:57:00.007+08:00

I really don't know how to feel right now. It's all too wild, too messed up. I honestly don't know how to feel, what I want anymore. I really do hope I can leave this place and stop the pain. It's hard to put into simple words or explanation. I'm upset. Disappointed. Lost.

It hurts to walk away from you, it's like the moment I stepped away, everything we went through just flashes back, everywhere I go, what I did, just reminds me of you, every single detail, the first day I met you, the first time we met, the first time we hang out, every little detail just flashes back, stopped me. So I turned back, running, running towards you, hoping to find you and make it right. I stand at the corner of the stairs, looking at your while you siting alone at the dock. I don't know what to do, what to say to make it right.

I don't know how you feel about me anymore. But I'm certain about myself, I wanna make our pinky promise, our dreams come true. Yeah I'm naive, but for you, why not? We might not hang out everyday like other people did, we might not talk on the phone every night. But as long as we keep trying, nothing could stop us.

As I post this, this is our 176 days of being together. It might be a fun & bumpy 176days but I never regret once being with you. I just wanna be there for you, sad, happy, everything, I wanna spent my life with you. I really do.

And if I could have the chance to go through this 176 days again, I'll.

151515

2011-05-03T17:05:00.008+08:00

Life so full of ups and downs. Well at least I have someone to kpkb to.

Dear Ysy

2011-04-20T21:50:00.003+08:00

It has not been but 5 months of knowing and being with one another and we are totally crazy about each other. You asked if I believed in forever and I said that I don't wanna put too much in the word forever just yet. But I always do believed that God does make a special someone for every man. But I know I was created for you. ( CHEESY RIGHT I KNOW )
Here I am, heart & soul confessing to the world how I feel about you, funny how love works in people's lives, I sure never expected to neither meet nor find someone as amazing as you. Everyday you bring something new, you make me laugh and make me smile.
Your happiness means everything to me, I love you more than you could possibly know and my love keeps growing everytime I see you struggling to make me happy. I love you, now & always.

ysysysysysysy

2011-04-20T01:23:00.001+08:00

I wanna write, write something about you. But my mind is all messed up, I miss you, I hope your not tired, hope your not vexed. I just want you to be happy. I really do.

fast cars

2011-04-19T11:11:00.001+08:00

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove.

Except my love from me to you.

2011-04-11T02:21:00.002+08:00

Oh hello, It's been awhile since I blogged daily, I might even start all over again, place for rant, share, waste a lil time & yeah a lil cos someone wanna see my blog too!

Imma blog tomorrow after I order all my stuffs. Gonna start saving extra cash for something.

HEHE

Hello YSY me love you.

Friends

2011-04-08T13:58:00.002+08:00

How do you differentiate a good or bad friend? How good is a friend that you will call him/her your best friend? Being able to click well, able to hang out, talk, chitchat have fun? Are these factors that determine if they are you good/best friend? Maybe for you, but to me; I'm not sure. Friends to me are people in your life that you interact with, have fun with, laugh, discriminate and such. Good or not, they are just there, I never take my friends for granted, I never will. It's like being able to spend great times with them doesn't necessarily make them a best friend. Trust? Secrets? How do you know if they won't tell you secrets away? How big is your trust towards you so called friends? I've seen and know too much hypocrites and liars who just didn't know how they will feel when people do the same way back to them. So much that I've always keep it up inside, or I just rant it all out here.

Well at least I've somewhere to let it all out, if not you just keep everything inside you. Slowly, those emotional pain stacks up, one above another, slowly suffocating you harder and harder & it's getting harder and harder to breathe. Until the night you can't take it anymore, you scream and you cry out all the pain, you start giving ridiculous attitude & remarks to people & your love ones. Even worst to the imaginary figure in front of you. That person is now your friend, your imaginary friend.

Even someone who meant so much to me..I can't even believe those words anymore.

This world, so cruel..

iaskfnsdufj

2011-04-07T01:28:00.003+08:00

Hate being all alone at night.

Bryn

2011-03-22T00:50:00.006+08:00

It's been so long since I blogged, I almost forgot how to do it. Except not really, I've just been so lazy and occupied. I couldn't find the time to brag about how much I love living here. HAHA no, really now. I should be serious. The last ten or so days have been pretty dope, being sober as fuck for 2 nights in a row @ Andrew's chalet, & hanging out with love most of the time, fighting & making up. Just that wonderful.

Sometimes I hate how I can put myself in everyone's shoes & be empathetic with all of them. Because they never say thanks, they never appreciate, and when you really need a favor or just someone to be there for you like how you did for them, they won't be there, they will be busy or just can't be bothered, they never understand. But I have to understand, and I have to help you and I just have, have, have..... It's alright. I might just say no one day.

Oh ya TAKECARE ANDREW! We will be there to fetch you in 5 months time.

lost.

2011-03-03T04:02:00.001+08:00

I woke up screaming, into the darkness. I searched for a light but I can find none, I stand up and immediately I fell as though I am drowning into the darkness that seem to strangle me, I screamed into the darkness I see someone they are looking directly at me, I called out for your name, yes you YSY but you turned and walk away, I try to struggle through the darkness to you, I called out to you again, but they keep walking away until I can't see you anymore. I stopped struggling and let the darkness take me then I am gone no one to helped me. I shut my eyes and let the last thought of your, of us whatever I could come into focus & everything just slowly vanish,

I don't wanna be in this situation ever again, I'm afraid.

me.

2011-02-02T23:47:00.002+08:00

After the past few weeks of hard work and unlimited fun, I've learned some hard things about myself. I've learned that I have things to work on and areas in my life where I need to grow. I have fear in my life. I've let fear push me around more often than I'd like to admit. When I'm scared I hide, I lie, I get busy, I keep secrets, I procrastinate. I've learned that it just takes a moment to make a mess, and messes scare me. Messes scare me because they challenge love. They challenge other people's love for me, challenge my love for myself.

Love and hate.

2011-02-02T01:42:00.008+08:00

I think to myself as she struggles to tell me what's been going on, what's on her mind. And in a painful yet relieving sigh I tell her it's OK. I guess things aren't always what they seem... It's like crayons, how you always look at the wraper on the crayon to see what color it is, but when you use it on the paper it's never the same color; it's always slightly different. Drastically. It's just a few hours you left in contact with me, and I felt I lost a big part of me. Maybe you just mean too much to me. Day 1 out of 5. ' You will be back soon' That's what I'm gonna repeat to myself every minute I think of you.

Rocketeer.

2011-01-19T11:48:00.002+08:00

In your life you meet people . Some you never think about again . Some you wonder what happened to them . There are some that you wonder do they ever think about you . And there are some you wish you never had to think about again ;but now you do.

what you know.

2011-01-11T22:24:00.005+08:00

Today I look into her eyes, and she's got that look. You know the kind of look where you can tell she's got something to say but she's just not strong enough person to just say how she feels. Most people aren't. I'm not. But I never thought she was. I can almost see the lump slowly forming in her throat. The kind that keeps you away from speaking. It's like a flood waiting to emerge from her irritated, puffy doll-like eyes. A beautiful flood. And I know she loves me, sometimes I question how I would ever produce such terrible thoughts in my head.

Family

2011-01-10T23:20:00.006+08:00

Hi,I've just came back from a short stroll at the park with my doggy. Feeling kinda under the weather recently, coughed non-stop. ajibgdrgbildugbgfg & my dog injured herself recently after she fell from the sofa. :( Spend alot of quality time together with love and family the past weekend, & love help me tidy up my closet. HEHEH You know too many tees too lil time? Oh & dinner with my family & love @ Geylang Sin Ma Live Seafood Restaurant. The food was nice and there's nothing more I could ask for then eating & enjoying with my loves one. Nothing in the world could exchange for that. nothing.

Ke Xue Guannnnnnn.

2011-01-06T22:05:00.003+08:00

I'm a sick but happy boy :)

2011-01-06T21:08:00.002+08:00

Partner

2010-12-29T23:48:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the lousy quality. Someone very cute didn't return me my camera charger.

It takes a lot to hate you. Too much to even forget you. But way too little to start loving you all over again, and every time when I'm beside you my tiredness, drowsiness everything just seem to vanished into thin air. And all i ever wanna do is just to spent lil more time before we had to bid goodbye, maybe it's just we hardly get to meet up, which makes me miss you more. I want our year to past as quickly as possible, so we can make more bottle letter. Your more than just a partner to me. Is something way more than words can explained. Something special.

I love you.

sysysysy.

2010-12-26T01:18:00.001+08:00

1 day to a legal age.

2010-12-22T08:13:00.003+08:00

Oh hi there. Remember me? Yeah it's been awhile. Been busy sleeping, cos I'm always tired after having fun or working.

I've been through this stuff again& since I can't sleep thanks to my itouch error I decided to drop by here and rant. Some friends are downright typical. It's like they only need you when they need help, and when they don't need, they won't even say hi to you when they bumped into you on the street. How awful. I ain't great, but I always tried not to say no when come to request, it's hard to came out from the mouth, well I know how it feels after certain past, been rejected just for a few revision notes and art crafts always seem so demanding to others. Nobody's perfect, but you don't have to be an asshole isn't it?

Sometimes I am selfish, i've know this for a long time, but the ways that kill me are those that keep me from the people I love the most. When I silence phone calls, or don't call back, or forget, not replying text messages ( You guys know it ) don't say good night, don't listen , don't go home or don't make the time. There are the ways that this goal of mine consumes me, eat me alive , crushes my hopes & mind . There are many ways that it doesn't. too many.

Will be trying to blog more often or just gonna update photo through my phone and my new dopeass itouch ( boastful much ) So just hang on here alright.

Can't wait for tomorrow. Gonna have a blast with love & friends.

on a side note. * Hi Love, please fall down more than me tomorrow! *

31days.

2010-12-16T02:46:00.002+08:00

We just gonna take one step at a time.

missmytaomao.

2010-12-15T00:16:00.006+08:00

insecurities

2010-12-14T00:31:00.003+08:00

Sorry for missing out in blogging, facebook & whatever social network there is.

Been busy, hanging out with the guys, hanging out with love, eat, drink shop, & shop & shop.

2 nights ago I got into my bed, shut off my lights, turned on my music, and tried to think about what was making me so unhappy. I didn't get it. Last night, I got into my bed, shut off my lights turned on my music, and I cried.

Yesterday was an obstacle, I choose to overcome and forget about it. I took your words, don't let me down. You meant so much, too much.

Drink drank drunk .

2010-11-30T19:58:00.008+08:00

Happy birthday XinYi & Venus. Kiss my ass.

Sushido .

2010-11-25T16:45:00.004+08:00

Gator boots with a pimped out gucci suit , with got no job but I'll stay sharp .

Can't pay my rent cos all my money spend .

that's okay cos I'm still fly .

Friday the 13th .

2010-11-24T22:37:00.001+08:00

She will be loved .

2010-11-22T22:12:00.005+08:00

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

I rot home all day.

This week @ sitex catch me @ Epicenter booth

Lai lai lai lai lai :>

Stereo Love.

2010-11-21T23:31:00.007+08:00

SUP. It's been awhile , yeah I know. Been busy this couple of days ( Not really ) With Movie , Meet-ups , Sentosa & tons of fun & ridiculous stuffzxc .

SYSYSYSYSYSYSYSYYSYSSYYSYSSYSYYSYSYSSYSY.

2010-11-16T00:20:00.001+08:00

Today is a good day.

Wordy post tomorrow .

Crossfire.

2010-11-15T01:09:00.005+08:00

Hello . Sunday isn't that sunny at all . & I've stayed at home whole day using tissues paper and throw it all over the floor . sidugfsdf,kghfdgujn

Went Sentosa with the warriors + Venus yesterday. was pretty dope & fun . Excluding the sunburn part .

Now I'm feeling under the weather with stupid flu and sore throat .

Gonna see a Dermatologist tomorrow. Yay. I shall learn skateboard soon :> hehe

kthanksbyeeexzc.

Same mistake .

2010-11-10T05:13:00.000+08:00

Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.

My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?

I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.

And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.

Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,

So I set out to cut myself and here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,

I'm screaming at the top of my voice.

Give me reason but don't give me choice.

'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.

This post will be edited after I woke up :>

Random post #1

2010-11-09T03:46:00.000+08:00

Oh . I can't wait for the holga flims to be developed .

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

When . You. &. Me. Both. Very. Nian. Qin .

2010-11-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

Life was simple when we were young.

So simple . A cartoon show on Kids Central would just probably make my day.

My favorite was Banana In Pajamas . Neat huh .

Came across a website. Which suggest 100+ ways to make your life more simple . Let me choose 10 .

1 . Don't try to read other people's minds . Don't make other people try to read yours . Communicate

2. Don't waste time on jealousy . The only person you're competing against is yourself . Jealousy Kills .

3 . Don’t worry too much about what other people think about you. You are what you are. ( You are beautiful no matter what they say~ words can't bring you down )

4 . Stay out of other people’s drama. And don’t needlessly create your own. M.Y.O.B

5 . Smile often, even to complete strangers. People might think your crazy but who cares .

6 . Apologize when you should. Indeed yes.

7 . Make mistakes, learn from them, laugh about them, and move along. Happy Go Lucky.

8. Let go of things you can’t change. Concentrate on things you can. Don't waste time changing unchangeable stuff .

9 . Mature, but don’t grow up too fast. HAHA I'LL NEVER GROW UP.

10 . Say “I love you” to your loved ones as often as possible. Isn't very hard what.

Okay I shall take a nap. I'm restless.

Give a little more.

2010-11-07T01:08:00.001+08:00

You deserve me more than what he deserve .

http://dailybooth.com/LiveHateDie/9939105

Friends , Family , Sy .

2010-11-06T02:06:00.002+08:00

I can't do this anymore. [ I don't think ] . It seems like I don't stand anywhere in anyone's life right now. What's the point if I don't matter to you. I hate moments like this that I have doubt my own existence because of what I have been subjected to . Yet I can't blame anyone else for the way I feel. I'm trying my best to get a spot which I matters , but the problem is it's not about me , someone else. I'm at loss for words , I think I've said enough . I've put up with too much from people i trusted / love / care . Enough is enough. Thanks for pretty much nothing.

*ps. EH NUFFNANG CAN I HAVE ADS ANOT. WLAN LEH. 1 WEEK ALREADY LEH.

SOO EH SOO EH.

2010-11-03T22:34:00.002+08:00

HI.

Stay. Don't Go .

2010-11-03T01:33:00.004+08:00

knnbccb

It's all too messed up . I honestly don't know how I feel about anything anymore . It's hard to put into simple words or explanations . I'm angry. Upset . Disappointed .

You mean something to me , I meant nothing to you , what is it now , I can't say .

Fast forward through a few months or random companions , heartfelt talks , late night phone calls with a certain girl . I had that feeling again . My heart skipped a beat whenever your name would show up on the call display ; we'd talk ( hours & hours ) until you've got really restless and it's past our scheduled sleeping time , but we never cared . I never felt awkward with you , that was the part that I liked best . We still didn't know each other very well , but we went for it anyway . Sometimes I can't pick out the good from the bad . They are same thing most of the times . Or the good will lead to the bad , as it did just recently . I felt ridiculous . I can't help but feel like we're both getting the short end of the stick ; I'm happy you came all the way down to find me for dinner , trying your best to make me happy . Although I didn't slept for the past 1 -2 day , I felt energized , as if we could just run around places all day . I'm weird , paranoid , fucked .

My heart , it don't beat the way it used to , and my eyes don't recognize you no more . And of course , being the kind of person I am , I won't walk away . I can't .

I love today, I really do .

I love the way you hold me. My head my hands my heart .

totalfml

2010-11-02T06:59:00.004+08:00

www.livehatedie.com

why .

2010-10-31T19:54:00.000+08:00

So hard to keep up with your emotions .

~

2010-10-30T12:53:00.003+08:00

Never thought I'd be the one to say: I'm still waiting for that day to come when you'll tell me what I've been dying to hear. From you. For me. Please. Because I don't want to worry over you anymore. I can't stay up halfway through the night thinking about you and me like I used to. It won't bring you to me.

I hate knowing that I don't trust you like I you did.

Now I'm ready to go .

2010-10-28T18:55:00.003+08:00

Hello I'm back , I wished I could randomly record my thoughts during the course of a day rather than thinking and banging away on this keyboard on what to enter on this blog . I don't make time to blog as often as I'd like to , I don't know why either , so some of the best junk floating through my head flows out . I often wonder if anyone else sees this place anymore . Maybe , I could just as well write these thoughts on a sheet of paper ( I hate writing ) , fold it into a paper airplane and set it free from my window . For some reason I feel like things are moving in a good direction lately , it might not appear that way , but I've a good feeling about things . I hope I'm right . oh well .

Your just rowdy , what a disappointment .

Give me one whole day with you.

2010-10-27T01:32:00.000+08:00

I don't like your sudden downpour . Where's your giggle ?

fml exams

2010-10-26T00:04:00.001+08:00

Hi i'm an asian and I suck in maths

World’s Coolest Intern

2010-10-24T13:18:00.003+08:00

Title says it all!
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Standard Chartered Bank is on the lookout for the ‘World’s Coolest Intern’ to join the Breeze mobile banking team in Singapore. If Tweetdeck and Facebook are the first things to greet you in the morning and the last things you say good night to, you’re exactly the type of person they’re looking for!
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Unfortunately to say I don't really have a background on being a " Real intern "
But I don't mind giving it a shot ! Receiving new task , getting challenges is a part of life and I don't think saying no or avoiding it is a excuse !
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"We’re not kidding about the cool part; the World’s Coolest Intern gets a 6-month internship programme in Singapore with total remuneration of SGD30,000, and will enjoy perks including training on social media and online engagement from Standard Chartered’s esteemed partners!"
$30 000 ? GAWD.
Who doesn't want to earn $30 000 within 6 months !?
$.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$ $.$

Okay just forget bout the $30 000 , getting to enjoy perks , training on social media and online engagement from Standard Chartered's esteemed partners is way too awesome. Imagine the stuff you get to learn , cool people you meet and don't forget bout the awesome benefits!
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The World’s Coolest Intern’
will work with the Breeze team, based in Singapore for six months
to help run their social media platforms, including

Update and maintain the Breeze blog, including posting relevant articles and responding to posts/comments
Update and maintain the Twitter account
Update and maintain the Youtube account
Update and maintain the Flickr account
Organize/launch social media marketing/outreach activities such as bloggers’ meet, tweet-ups, etc.

Are you kidding me ? Twitter , Youtube & Flickr ? That's what I do almost everyday ! . Updating Facebook Status , tweeting all my buddies , updating my photo @ Deviantart , watching my favorite Youtubers everyday is party of my daily basis ! This would be totally a piece of cake!
& this blog skin is done by myself! & I helped most of my friend's blog skins too!
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I'm so engrossed in social networking even my mind came up with a name like this!
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I've always wanted to join courses getting jobs that have relationship with Advertising , Design , or Social networking!
Is the 21st century & now since everyone is on Facebook , Youtube , Twitter . Advertising via top social networks like this will be a great idea! Just talk about Facebook , now connecting more than 250 million people worldwide , & it would be a pleasure getting to work something relevant to this !

This is totally a dream job .

Fat but happy.

2010-10-24T01:54:00.000+08:00

How can we still succeed , taking what we don't need? Telling lies , alibis , selling all the hate that we breed . Supersize our tragedies . Bought in the land of the free.

hehe thanks guan yin ma.

2010-10-23T13:06:00.000+08:00

Lost my wallet yesterday @ town. Panic like fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

heheheh lucky got friends who lend me $ to train home .

& I receive a call from DBS saying that they found my card & wallet at somerset mrt.

God bless the person who found my wallet . :>

HAHAHAH

Happy max. Okay bye Imma bring my dog for gromming .

Noise Singaporeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-10-21T15:44:00.000+08:00

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omgwtfbbq

2010-10-18T08:35:00.000+08:00

I dreamt bout cottonsheep.

She's sick . I bring her go see doc.

This is weirddddd.Way too weirddddd.

BBQ Last weekend @ Seet's place

Warriors+Spartans Bbq session.

Kh's birthday drinking session.

Simple words for my absence ~

: Whirlwind romance . Emotional roller coaster . I love it when I'm beside you. Once and for all. hello again. uncertainty. You're super sweet when you're in a good mood. Old friends, new friends . Humid nights . fights and makes ups. humble mode . true friends. real laughter. All night get-together. this is the life . busy days .busy nights. living in your letters . envy. bad decisions & close calls. absence makes the heart grow fonder. Sweet you. this is goodbye . this is always.

Just.our.hands.clasped.so.tight

2010-10-15T13:54:00.000+08:00

( HAHA I LOOK SO CONCERNED )

I'm back. I started to blog ( not including random stuffs ) a couple of times last week , but I couldn't expose the true thoughts running around in my head , so I did nothing. Hell , I still can't sort out the thoughts in my head. I have already been able to make a decision and go with it , good or bad. Sometimes I regretted my decision the next day , but I lived on with it. (Duh)

Lately , I can't seem to reach that point . I need to sit in my thinking bed , think think & fall asleep.

Oh here's the song some of you guys wondered about what I mentioned everywhere yesterday.

this song reminds me of the girl that i dont deserve.

Death.Cab.For.Cutie

2010-10-14T12:40:00.000+08:00

Love of mine. Someday you will die. But I'll be close behind. I'll follow you into the dark. No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white. Just our hands clasped so tight. Waiting for the hint of a spark. If heaven and hell decide . That they both are satisfied . Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs.
If there's no one beside you , when your soul embarks . Then I'll follow you into the dark.

Kings.&.Queens

2010-10-13T11:58:00.001+08:00

I take back my words. I can't refrain myself from coming to this particular spot.

fuckyeahexams.

2010-10-12T08:08:00.001+08:00

Won't be blogging for probably 2-3 weeks. Have to work on exams & portfolio. seeyawww.

Eat . Pray . Love.

2010-10-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

You ever wondered what it would be like to watch your life like a TV series ? You know , sit in a nice comfy sofa , your bed and see your life from an objective point of view. It might scare the hell out of you. It might make you very sad . I won't like the chance to see my life for myself. I've had my life thrown in my face quite a bit lately and it's not how I remember it or how I want it. Too bad life ain't a Tv series , I'm not just an actor who can cancel a series , and recreate himself in the drama show. Sometimes things just happen right in front of your eye. Sometimes unprepared ; unarmed.

Do you remember how your dream was like ? Is it from a first person view or a 3rd person view?

Mine is always first ; which is rather nasty sometimes , always scary .

It's been awhile since I have a good dream. Time to think positive +++++++

Beautiful.Remains

2010-10-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

Gently rest your weary head. What you live for now is dead.

Goodluck silly.

Arcade Fire.

2010-10-04T07:05:00.000+08:00

it's 7am noww. This is probably the time I will go to bed for the past few days but for today is different as I turn in kinda early today. Needa cut down on drinking -.- . I came across this word on my newspaper I've just bought " Living only for today " . I love it , The past is gone , the future is unknown , so all that holds any importance is right now. We certainly can't change the past , it's done . You can debate whether we can change the future , yes you can , but you can't change other's other than yourself. I want to think about this more . I'm sure I'll be writing more tonight. I'm starving , I'm off to have breakfast with my mum. seeyou.

Moving on.

2010-09-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine talks about living in the now ( Present ) , leaving the past behind . Well that's great in theory and it does make sense , there's no such thing as time machine , even if there is , you probably going through everything which you had before. But the past has a strong grip on us . We relish our past glory and cry over our past mistakes , I've did , tons of them. It is said that you can learn from the past . You have to stop and think about the past in order to learn from it. I know people who live in the past ; some in the distant past . Some people justify their " soul " on things from the past . It doesn't matter who you were , who you are today is what matters. I try not to dwell on the past . However , now and then the past creeps into my head , kicks me in the gut and laugh. The past has popped into my brain and made frown big smile big. I've kinda regret deleting off my old blog from 2006-2008 mid . ASUFVKGBSRKHJBFSUKF :( I think the PAST deserves a friendly handshake and a pat on the back. Now off you go , I've got a new friend called TODAY I want to spent time with .

Knives & Pens .

2010-09-29T07:31:00.000+08:00

Hello . Is there anybody out there? I have been so busy lately that I've deprived myself the joy of blogging. But I do enjoy the time hanging out with the guys. All the movies , games , supper etc was fun as hell. Over the last few weeks many greats blogs have entered my head , fumble around a while , and slipped away , leaving very little behind. It seems life one thought enters my head and kicks another one out. I need to record everything inside my phone when I get some point instead of relying on my fuzzy mind. Oh well I tend to get really distracted when I'm having fun. it's 7:30 am right now. & I've just got back from breakfast with Mum & Dad. Shall start studying & packing my room a lil . Be nice & leave me a suggestion , or a question on my formspring alright . KTHXBYE.

http://www.formspring.me/lweezee

ok go

2010-09-28T06:35:00.000+08:00

I have written posts before about my efforts to understand love . That love can be beautifully cruel . I have gained a new appreciation for the different types of love . Young , or new , love as opposed to commited love. Apparently a person can love someone so much , they hate what the other person does . A person can actually love someone so much that they tell them to walk away . I believe love can change who you are. Love can change your very mind , your environment , your soul. I think a person can change so much that you don't even know yourself. Is a total weird experience to come out of a walking coma and realize you don't know who you are , in reality you've been hiding . Sometimes we just get to know the reflection in the mirror , the voice we hear coming out of our mouth , the person everyone else talks bout . Is that really me? It's hard to admit who we really are. But I think it's important . If you don;t know who you really are , how can you become the person you want to be?

This too shall pass.

The man who can't be moved.

2010-09-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

Friday/Saturday : Bo science class , Movie marathon , Saw V , The Uninvited & Don't mess with the Zohan . Mahjong , Supper , Larry the bird , Fifa 06 . Egyptian Restaurant , Shisha , No taste , Circle line , Supper , Monopoly deal , Midnight pool .

IMMABORED.

2010-09-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain

Nothing to lose but everything to gain

Reflecting now on how things could've been

It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear, there's nothing left to fear

So we made our way by finding what was real

Now the days are so long that summer's moving on

We reach for something that's already gone.

I'vedreamtaboutyoutoday.OneofthebestdreamIhadsinceages.

FML

2010-09-23T23:46:00.001+08:00

IMFEELINGCRANKYYYYFUCKINEEDSTARBUCKS.

123

2010-09-23T23:30:00.001+08:00

ABC

We are all to blame.

2010-09-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

It's odd , after browsing through the whole drawer of Presents , anniversary gifts I received . I feel like I have a lot of crap rattling around in my head , yet I'm struggling to put it in here. I guess maybe the problem is that I have several things in my life right now that aren't very clear or just simply hard for me to face. All I can do is deal with the issues in my life one at a time. That's you. You that who I always do everything for. Now you took everything away from me .

I'm all to blame .

Now this problem everyone faces in different parts of their life.

I'm surrounded by many friends who have 2 sided face , you know the usuals , those type who seem to be nice to you in the face like they so found of you , suck it up to you and such , behind you they start using the ak-machine gun or some north korea high tech shit weaponry to shoot you.

I'm not referring as this only happens to me , I have assholes who bootlicks my friend and tell me awful stuffs to me. Some humans are just so shallow and hypocrite . Not everyone is that nice as they seems to be all the time.

I always believe in karma. You indecisive piece of shit. _|_

Oh I've got a new haircut , and a new dye for my hair.

BOTH is totally fml material. GRRRRRRRR.

Okay bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye.

Bee mode.

2010-09-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

Just a quick post while I take a few moments to catch my breath . It has been a very busy weekend with many things going on. I feel so much like a child getting to hang out with my cousins and such yesterday . Yesterday was just pretty awesome but super tiringgggggggg.

Okay bye Imma meet YH for lunch . byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Post again tonighttttttttt.

shitty blog is shitty.

2010-09-16T16:58:00.001+08:00

Shopping @ town with mum & sis yesterday. woohooooooooooooooooo

Movie stay over @ Shun's place. DAWN OF THE DEAD. The storyline was pretty badass but the ending suck big time . It's like you watch 2hours of humans trying to save themselves from fucked up flesh eating cannibals and they still die in the end. But other than the story line , the zombies and location they use was pretty awesome , not like the typical zombie movie you now see when it always happen during the night . Cos I do like to watch some daylight kicking action. Today is like a NOTING TO WRITE ON THIS SHITTY BLOG day.

Bye I'm gonna dye my hair.

Ripples.

2010-09-15T13:46:00.000+08:00

Dinner , pool , Resident evil Afterlife 3D , cake , Jayden's place, Birthday surprise , chit-chat . Home .

I've bumped into someone special yesterday , it was merely a hi , a wave of a hand . It keeps me wondering .

I've been thinking lately how one slip of the heart can cause ripples in your life that never end . We've all done something without a second thought of the consequences. In a bright flash of life we let our heart take the wheel of our life . Unfortunately our heart can't be trusted . After all it can be reckless and emotional on the same beat .

They say time heals all wounds . The time has to be spent filling the heart with good things and pushing out the bad . Then the ripples of tears will disappear into a life of smiles.

white flag.

2010-09-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

Life seems pretty much okay recently , decided to blog almost everyday if I've got the time .

Just came back grocery shopping with my sister though , IKEA & GIANTTTTTTTTTT.

Meatballs is totally orgasm .

The only problem is the past , I don't usually have this feeling of suckyness (LOL I JUST MAKE THAT WORD UP) I don't usually go out with my family members but recently I do , alot . Jogging & such . Being with my family is totally awesome . But I realize that whenever I'm with my family members , I had this particular special someone at her own home , who do care . But now is totally different, I don't know what I'm actually typing but it's just somehow somewhat feeling , those feeling when you always gets when you have that someone . aw man wtf am I typing. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
OKAY long story short : It's just something special. Which I had it once , not anymore.

I guess I'm gonna cut my hair soon , it's getting very thick and ridiculous .

Supper prata timeeeeeeee. BYE

1, 2 ,3

2010-09-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

Long post later on. Gonna go Ikea nowwwwwwwwwww . Seeya

ahsnow

2010-09-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

Snowy is sickkkkkkk.

2010-09-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Illuminati

SATAN?

2010-09-09T04:48:00.000+08:00

We are the antidote and also the disease. We're the oppressors who posses marks of the beast. Mankind deserves this. A catalyst for deconstruction. A scapegoat to hold humanity on its knees. A self-inflicted social anarchy to frighten the population into submission. Intricate color schemes on TV hypnotize them while they sleep.

OH ILLUMINATI .

HEH BRAIN WASHED.

selfpwned.

2010-09-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

all time low.

2010-09-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

I've happen to drop by this website when this guy wrote this .

" Feelings changed , memories won't "

Annoys my brain the whole fucking day.

When we fall and hurt ourself , the wound can be very painful . They say , " time heals all wounds " . As time passes , the pain fades into a tiny ant-like speck in the back of our mind , but the wound is still there. Can we ever totally heal the wound? A wound can be nearly " healed" , only to have an event , a song or even a smell which could tear the wound open again. The scars on our hearts and souls are reminders that we are humans. A heart that hurts is a heart that works.

reveal yourself

2010-09-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

I have pondered the idea that people become the person that other's see and hear . A friend of mine put a little twist on it. She suggests that people make their opinion of someone based on that person's behavior & looks , which is a reflection of who they are. If that's that case , then we are driving people to their opinion or who we are , aren't we? But are we affected by other's opinion and how they look at us? Do we try harder to become more or less the person other think we are? I always like to be the one I'm comfortable with , so do hanging out with friends ; isn't it awful to know that the person you hang with isn't the real person that he/she really is? They are just trying to suck it up to you? But there's always reasons why everyone has a mask sometimes.

Never judge a book by it's cover.

facts

2010-09-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

Multiples of missed call ; a bunch of " where are you!? are you coming back to school? " sms .

Makes me felt that I'm running away from the truth. Oh I am .

Honestly ; I'm guilty . I've been living most of my life being honest with others , but I might have been less honest with myself , but never with others. After a few days of pondering for a few days. I realize that it's no place for me. The truth is SOOOOO SO SO SO much easier. When I promise myself something , I intend to keep my promise to everyone . I can't understand myself without being honest with myself. The more you get into this kind of shit you realize everything isn't that nice as it seems ;You have your rights to believe who you want to .

FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT FACE THE FACT .

Welcome to reality bitches.

L.I.E.S

2010-08-30T02:19:00.000+08:00

Oh it's been awhile due to my spacebar was kind faulty but I've got it fixed!

I've remembered this time when we are celebrating Zihui's birthday at her house and we all start gossiping bout someone. & you know bout me I'm a curious and rather annoying so I would tend to find out why. But the only person who knew kept her promise. (Y) Which reminds me of it's really hard to find someone that really kept their trust don't you?

Can I trust anyone? Can any of us really trust anyone? I've been doing a lot of thinking lately ; the more I think , the more I think back over the years, the less I trust anyone.How do we know that a person can be trusted? Who can we trust? When I think back, some of the people I've trusted the most have lied to me . I'm sure they thought it was for my benefit ( probably ) or maybe they thought it didn't matter . Most of the time I would just blow it off , not making a big thing out of the lie. What's wrong with me , I should be pissed , that person who I gave my trust LIED to me . Oh god bullllllllllllllllshitzzx.

I think people lie to each other everyday , every few hours , big lies or small it's still a lie. We are all liars . Someone tells you something , then later they tell you a slightly different version of the lie , and yet another version , and so on and on and on. I am very forward with people ( unless I wanna hint you for something ) Imma come right out and ask them very straight pointed questions . They will be your typical friends like "OH YES YOU CAN TRUST ME I SWEAR "

and next moment you will be believing them and stuffz. EVEN I DO IT TOO.

Oh well we ain't motherfucking lie detectors .

oh btw

Happy birthday sister (:

It's been more than 7 years I suppose. Do take care. Loserftw lovexz.

2010-08-28T00:30:00.000+08:00

lame ass comment will not be entertained.

hope.dreams

2010-08-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

When you try your best , but you don't succeed .

When you get what you want , but not what you need.

Could it be worse?

whatever.you.like

2010-08-22T19:17:00.000+08:00

I'm back . Finally have a few minutes to unleash my brain , actually there's noting much.

Well I'm writing today beacause I can't seem to focus on anything else ( I have a totally weak attention span ) . Maybe I won't even be able to focus on this either. There's so many plans that has been made & not yet done. I guess I shall do a timetable or some shit. Or even better . Cut down the time I spend on social networking & do something rather more productive .

they just ain't the same.

2010-08-21T02:19:00.000+08:00

Welcome to rainy day. Well I've actually caught up with a few new/old friends recently and lost a few. ( oh well some people are just that FUCKING realistic ) Things aren't as them seem ; nobody is real? You never really know someone? We just know the person they want us to meet. The more you listen to people , look at people or pay attention to people , the more you realize that everyone is hiding ; not everyone is exactly what they seem to be in your face. Sometimes even including me ; We are all wearing a costume , trying to disguise the being inside.

It's really hard to find someone who you actually get to be yourself & enjoy without a slight chance of getting embarrass , that's when you find that special one ; that one who doesn't look at your flaws and love you for who you are.

Please don't rain on my Saturday. I wanna fly a kite ; throw a boomerang & enjoy a spring chicken for dinner.

syiscute

rest.your.weary.head. what.you.live.for.now.is.dead

2010-08-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

I.miss.my.fucking.hair.

Life goes on. It just keeps drifting by.I feel like I'm trying to tie off to the dock , but I'm never quick enough.I want to make it stop .Stop long enough so that nothing happens.Have been watching enough tv recently . Did you give a shit about the commercial/advertisement ?Like the TV commercial where everything freezes in time and one guy keeps on living ,or at least going through the motions.Remember when we were kids and played ICE&WATER? That's what I wish I could do to everything and everyone around me.

there's always not enough time.

Imma save money for TDWP tee. omfg chiooooooooottm.

into.the.slaughter.basement.

2010-08-18T16:31:00.000+08:00

time to pull up our fucking socks.

Karma will get you.

NEWBABYZ.

2010-08-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

Plagues.

2010-08-14T15:34:00.001+08:00

swords.dragon & diet coke.

2010-08-14T15:03:00.000+08:00

Be Gone with you, you articles of nothingness.

I don't know what I have to do to prove myself.

This audience is stern.

Grey is what has risen from the pits.

Choose a new medicine to control it.

You thought you had me fooled.

The grey is what has risen from the pits.

2010-08-13T17:49:00.001+08:00

I'm blogging on my phone nowxz . TEST TEST TEST.

I stay sharpppp.

2010-08-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

Gotcha car play gems on shine, said it's mine, get a mink, baby girl lets ride

You the Number 1 stud, and we're gonna glide

And go straight to the mall, and turn out the inside

Prowler Gucci full length leather, Bourbons cooler, Gucci sweater

Twenty inches pop my feather, The Bird man daddy, I fly in any weather

Alligator seats with the head in the inside

Swine on the dash, G-Wagon so Fly

Number 1 don't tangle and twist

When it come to these cars my hands are faithful

The Gucci with the matching interior

3 wheel ride with the tire in the middle

It's Fresh and stunna and we like brothers,

We shine like paint

Daddy this our summer

The Devil Wear Prada - Still fly.

Get your groove on.

2010-08-13T13:56:00.000+08:00

H.A.T.E.M.E

2010-08-12T02:58:00.000+08:00

I have to block out thoughts of you , so I don't lose my head.

They crawl in like cockroach leaving babies in my bed .

Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone .

Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home.

Hate me today .

Hate me tomorrow .

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you.

bye nightmare.

2010-08-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

Dreamcatcher baby.

m79

2010-08-10T16:18:00.000+08:00

No excuse to be so callous
Dress yourself in bleeding madras
Charm your way across the Khyber Pass.

find your love.

2010-08-10T01:37:00.000+08:00

I'm back. It's strange that time is flying by , yet things seem to be standing still .

We are able to continue to keep moving forward no matter what setbacks we've encountered .

But , I don't think that I appreciate this fact enough . What we are accomplishing under the circumstances is noting short of a miracle when you step back and think about it.

Yeah so obvious I'm having trouble getting my head around my life lately . I feel like I'm floating between a dream and a nightmare. It's like having you back for a moment ;

but ain't the same you. what to do. what to do?

Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave.

skeleton dance.

2010-08-08T14:39:00.000+08:00

Rock on out.

memories as a child .

2010-08-08T03:34:00.000+08:00

Have been going through old blog post , old photos , birthday cards , anniversary gifts you gave . reminds me of wayy too much stuff and realize how time flies ; I wish a person could erase memories from their mind. You would think that as head fills with new memories ; they would push the old ones out . Obviously that is not the case ; As I get older, distant memories are becoming more clear . I have been recalling events from my childhood that haven't popped into my head in decades. It's kind of weird . Life as a child ain't that bad afterall ; we don't need to ask for too much ; all we need is just a little fun ; I remembered as a child I would be watching cartoons all day ; and next moment when I heard this BELL ( UNCLE ON A MOTORBIKE WHO SELLZ ICE CREAMXZ )

BAMMMMMMXZ. You would see me rushing towards my mum just like how a fire fighters heard the bell. I would get the awesome 2 bucks and rush down to the uncle before he drivez away. I would be happy the whole day licking that damn ice cream ( sounds fucking wrong , but you get what I mean ) Oh well how naive we somehow gets . Every year past so fucking fast nowadays . So hard to keep up with everyone , nature , technology . As we get's older , burden gets pilled up , homework , jobs , studies , relationship . Jeez how life so predictable nowadays.

How I wish life would be simple as a kid. Don't you?

I did enjoyed my time with you guys I called friends who I really get to catch up with nowadays.

Including you, whose reading this till now and didn't get bored (Y) Kudos.

Thank you for making a part of my life meaningful .

STARFUCKER.

2010-08-08T01:16:00.001+08:00

Hard.Smart.Beta

I am not a robot.

2010-08-07T01:11:00.001+08:00

skipped the movie SALT with the guys today and went to study and dinner/chill/gossip.

Snowy very sad ; cos mum and dad went to KL to have a holiday.

Aww you.

needafuckinggrowhair.

2010-08-05T04:24:00.001+08:00

This weekend gonna be hectic . Can't wait.